My first book, Ruby’s Misadventures with Reality, came out a couple of months ago. I expected my book release to be fun, but I ended up feeling a little despondent. Releasing a book involves a lot of self-promotion and sharing, something I’m not particularly fond of. In the midst of my online promotion frenzy, I took a quiz titled, “What should your hungover name be?” In response to Buzzfeed’s prompts, I said I’d prefer to puke in a KFC bucket, move into a cave, and watch Netflix.
Buzzfeed spat out a paragraph-long description of my hungover self. When I read it, everything clicked into place: I’m prone to book launch hangover and my name is Timothy.
According to Buzzfeed:
Timothy gets existential hangovers. Booze makes little Tim sad the next day. “Why did I say that?” “What was even the point of last night?” “Who even am I anymore?” Chill Timmy. It’s OK, you had fun last night and now you have to pay for it, that’s how the world works. Have a bacon sandwich and a cup of tea, you’ll be just fineee.
This perfectly described my feeling about book release. I might have released a book, but I couldn’t shake the feeling that I did karaoke in my underwear. Worse yet, all my family and friends were there, plus some strangers. The next day it was all over the internet. In the foggy hungover light of morning, I was like, “What’s so-and-so going to think? I wish I’d never written a book!” Throughout August I yo-yo’ed between grandious success delusions and a fervent desire that no one would ever read the book. I am Timothy.
Everyone kept telling me “Congratulations!” All I wanted to do was go back in time and rewrite a couple of chapters.
Now that I’m a couple of months past book release, I feel normal again. I recycled all the scraps of paper with notes about Ruby that have been filling up bins for ages. That felt good. I’m working on a new project and about to start edits on the sequel to my Ruby’s Misadventures. If you want to find out what your hungover name is, take the Buzzfeed quiz. Post who you get in the comments!